2020 HAS SUCKED!!!

I haven’t written here for a very long time. Life got ahold of me, I got busy, I let myself get to busy to where I couldn’t make time to even write on my blog..

I know this has happened to a lot of people. I was in a funk for the longest, I was becoming more and more depressed each day. I allowed my pain to take control of my life, I had found a great job, working from home, and on my own schedule. Then I became stressed and overwhelmed by it and needed to take a breather for a while.

We ended up moving due to my husband taking on a new job in a new town. Then I felt the need to go back to work part-time to help my husband the best I could with bills. It felt like we were always drowning in debt, I felt like I was always the one to blame, I have to see a doctor every month for pain and since we can’t afford insurance we have to pay out of pocket each month. So to me, that has added extra stress to us financially.

I got into a reading funk, it was like whatever book I picked up, I just couldn’t get into it, no matter how hard I tried. Then I felt like I wasn’t enjoying reading a book, but pushing myself, so I quit reading for a while.

Then at the end of June, we got a call from the police dept that our son Bruce had passed away in a car accident. It has been 2 months and it still feels like it is so unreal, I have panic attacks and anxiety attacks almost every day. I know there is no time frame on grieving, but I am trying my best to wake up each day and push forward with life.

I am hoping to get back to writing more on my blog. I am going to try to do them better and keep them update. Thank you all so much for sticking around while I was absent.

It’s the little things in life…..

I had asked my best friends sister to make matching hoodies for myself, and her sister, and boy did she go above and beyond. I am blown away at how great they turned out. I showed her what I wanted, and she created a great hoodie for us..

I can’t wait to get mine in the mail this week. My husband laughs at me, because I get super excited about things like this. If I win a book in a giveaway, I scream and get super excited about it. I can’t help it!! I just love things like this… If you’re a avid book reader like myself, do you love to have things like this?

If you have a face book page, I will post her link below and you can check out her fabulous work. She had to create a new page, so she doesn’t have all of her work posted yet.

https://www.facebook.com/tumblersbyamber20

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Things you save in a fire By Katherine Center

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Happy 😃 Sunday!! ⁣ ⁣ 📖 BOOK REVIEW 📖 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️/5 ⁣ ⁣ Things you save in a fire 🔥 By Katherine Center ⁣ ⁣ I couldn’t wait to read this book, it had been on my radar for a long time, I meant to read it in 2019, and I never had the chance. ⁣ ⁣ This book was phenomenal, I wish I could give it more then 5 ⭐️. ⁣ ⁣ Cassie has been through so much in her life, her mom leaving her as a teenager, the anger she felt and how she directed it to become an amazing firefighter, and EMT. ⁣ ⁣ This book had it all, the highs and lows, the struggles, the rage of anger, 𝐋ife, love, the struggles of being a woman in a mans workplace. ⁣ ⁣ I laughed while reading this, I had tears, I felt so many emotions while I plowed through this book. I read this book in a day. ⁣ ⁣ But, Cassie was born to fight fires, to help the community, to win the valor award, she worked so hard to prove herself. ⁣ ⁣ I loved this book from the first page to the last, Cassie’s job was her identity. This book is by far my favorite so far this year. ⁣ ⁣ If you haven’t read it, it is a must read…. ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ #booklover #bookaddict #booklove #booklovers #readersofinstagram #tbr #bookworms #booksofig #alwaysreading #bookrecommendation #bookaesthetic #bookishlife #readstagram #girlswhoread #readersofinsta #bookishpost #bookrec #booksbooksandmorebooks #bookreviewers #bookblogger #booklover #booksbooksbooks #booksonbooks #currentlyreading #booksharks

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Regretting You By Colleen Hoover ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️💫/5

How do you pick up the pieces without the glue holding everything together??

Synopsis: Morgan Grant and her sixteen-year-old daughter, Clara, would like nothing more than to be nothing alike. Morgan is determined to prevent her daughter from making the same mistakes she did. By getting pregnant and married at a young age. Morgan put her own dreams on hold. Clara doesn’t want to follow in her mother’s footsteps. Her predictable mother doesn’t have a spontaneous bone in her body.

The only person who can bring peace to the house is her husband Chris. When out of no where their lives become changed forever, they find it difficult to coexist.

My Review: I felt bad for Morgan I’m so many ways, she feels trapped in her marriage, her husband Chris, doesn’t want her to work or anything. She’s already put her dreams of going to college on hold, so Chris could go to college and become a very successful doctor.

They had Clara when they were very young,they got married, and yes Chris stepped up to the plate to take care of them both. Morgan felt trapped incase something happened to Chris she’d have no back up for her and Clara.

Her sister Jenny has had a on and off relationship with Jonah, who took off to live with his sister the day after he found out Morgan was pregnant. Jonah dated Jenny at the time, but he was in love with Morgan someone he’d never be able to be with now.

Then one day Morgan & Jonah both get a call saying that Chris and Jenny were in a car wreck. Emotions run high as they sit there trying to figure out why the two were even together in the first place.

All there lives are changed forever, Jonah is left taking care of Elijah, which is Jenny and his son who is only months old. Morgan is left trying to be the best mother she can to Clara. Clara, becomes rebellious, and hates her mother.

As time goes on, more secrets are unfolded, the love that Jonah has had for Clara for 16 years comes to a head.

Why were Chris and Jenny together? Is Jonah really the father to Elijah? Will Morgan and Jonah explore their feelings? Will Clara find out what her mother and Jonah are trying to keep from her??

This book was a great, fast paced read. I have recently found this author and have enjoyed the books I have read by her thus far.

My three most anticipated reads for 2020!!

The New Husband By D.J Palmer Pub date: April 2020, Big Lies In a Small Town By Diane Chamberlain Pub date: Jan 14th, 2020, An everyday hero By Laura Trentham Pub date: Feb 2020.

What books are you just dying to read, that come out in 2020??

I can’t wait to get to these on my tbr list, I received these three copies from the publishers. I am doing buddy reads for two of them, I am so excited to read these. Do you ever get advanced reader copies from the publishers?

Here is a little about each book;

The New Husband By D.J. Palmer; In this chilling, twisty thriller, D.J. Palmer takes you into the depths of obsession, showing the lengths people will go to keep their family together….. or tear it apart.

What makes Simon Fitch so perfect???

  • He knows all her favorite foods, music, and movies.
  • Her son adores him.
  • He was there when she needed him most.
  • He anticipates her every need.
  • He would never betray her like her first husband.

The perfect husband?? The question is, Why??

Big Lies In A Small Town, By DianeChamberlain, A millioin emotions. One Powerful Read. Strokes of genius… Or shades of madness??

North Carolina, 2018:

Morgan Christopher’s life has been derailed. Taking the fall for a crime she did not commit, she finds herself serving a three-year stint in the North Carolina Women’s Correctional Center. Her dream of a career in art is put on hold-until a mysterious visitor makes her an offer that will see her released immediately. Her assignment: restore and old post office mural in a sleepy southern town. Morgan knows nothing about art restoration, but desperate to leave prison, she accepts. What she finds under the layers of grime is a painting that tells the story of madness, violence, and conspiracy of a small town secrets.

North Carolina, 1940:

Anna Dale, an artist from New Jersey, wins a national contest to paint a mural for the post office in Edenton, North Carolina. Alone in the world and desperate for work, she accepts. But what she doesn’t expect is to find herself immersed in a town where prejudices run deep, where people are hiding secrets behind closed doors, and where the price of being different might just end in murder.

What happened to Anna Dale? Are the cluse hidden in the decrepit mural? Can Morgan overcome her own demons to discover what exists beneath the layers of lies?

An everyday hero, By Laura Trentham;

This book addresses PTSD, survior’s guilt, and falling in love after a tremendous loss with an empathy that rings true. It’ll be impossible to finish this book without shedding tears.

At thirty, Greer Hadley never expected to be forced home to Madision, Tennessee with her life and dreams of being a songwriter up in flames. To make matters worse, a series of bad decisions and even crappier luck lands her community service hours ar a nonprofit organization that aids veterans and their families. Greer cannot fathom how she’s supposed to use music to help anyone deal with their trama and loss when the one thingthat brought her joy has failed her.

What books are you hoping to read in 2020?

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The library always sucks me in!!!

The Wife and The Widow Thank you!! #minotaurbooks #review copy

Published Sept 24th, 2019

Today I recieved a review copy for #TheWifeandTheWidow I had no clue this was arriving, but I am so excited that it did. I have been wanting to read this book so bad. And now I will get the chance to do just that.

Have you read this book yet?? If so, what are your thoughts? Leave a comment with what you thought about this book.

Synopsis:

Kate, a widow whose grief is compounded by what she learns about her dead husband’s secret life; and Abby, an an island local whose world is turned upside down when she’s forced to confront the evidence of her husband’s guilt. But nothing on this island is quite as it seems, and only when these two women come together can they discover the full story about the men in their lives.

How well do we really know the people we love???

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What is your favorite book series???

What are some of your favorite book series????

I want to hear what series have been your favorite, I am hoping that it will help me and others fnd some new series out there.

Here are some series that I have read that I loved..

The Womans Murder Club By James Patterson. The Alex Cross series By James Patterson. The Carnival Series By Stephaine Garber.

Right now I am reading The Winter Street series By Elin Hilderbrand and I am loving it, I am on the 3rd book and it has sucked me in, just like the last 2 have. Thanks to bookstagram I have found Elin and her books. I plan on reading everyone of her books. I have fallen in love with her writing.

The Winter Street Series!!!

Comment below with your favorite, lets see if we can recommend some new series to others. Have a blessed day!!!

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You won’t ever see my worst days, or know I’m ill because I hide it from you.

When you see me, I am happy, laughing, cracking jokes, and what not. I live to see others smile and laugh and make sure that you’re alright. I don’t get out the house much, but when I do I am usually wearing a hoodie, and leggings. Most days I don’t even get dressed, I stay in my pj’s all day long.

When I am seen outside, I always get ” you don’t look sick”, or ” why are you faking it ” what you don’t understand, is when I am told those things it hurts me on the inside, I don’t show you that what you just said hurts me, and I don’t really have to explain to you what is all wrong with me. I hear whispers behind my back, she is doing this for attention, she’s probably faking it, she needs to get out there and get a job. I remain strong and act like I don’t know what you said about me, what rumors you’re spreading about me. But, I guess you also don’t realize that what you said about me, hurts me deep down, it makes me ashamed of myself. I know what others say about you, we shouldn’t let it bother us, but it does bother me, because I am nice to everyone, I try my best to make others laugh, and feel good about themselves, while I’m dying inside.

FYI I am not writing this to get your attention, your pitty, or anything else. I am writing this to make you aware, aware that maybe you don’t see some illnesses, it doesn’t give you the right to judge people, or talk down about them.

I am writing this to let you know, that everyday for me is a struggle. Not all people feel the same pain, something might work for you, and it might not work for someone else. So why give that person a hard time? Why judge them? Why lower their self esteem when it’s already low enough?

Here are the things that are wrong with me, I will even post what it means so you don’t have to try to look it up.

*Chronic Radicular Low Back Pain — lumbar radiculopathy is a self-limited injury to the nerve roots of the lumbar spine. It can be excruciating, including burning, stinging pain, radiation of pain down leg, decreased sensation of the legs, numbness, and tingling, and muscle weakness.

*Fatigue- being extremely tired all the time

  • Acute Pain of Left Shoulder– The start of arthritis
  • DDD ( Degenerative Disc Disease– Osteoarthritis of the spine, a condition of the discs between vertebrae with loss of cushioning, fragmentation and herniation related to aging.
  • Sacral Pain— Inflammation of one or both of the joints where the bottom of the back bone joins the pelvis.
  • Lumbago with Sciatica– pain radiating from the lower back down into the legs.
  • Anxiety States– (GAD) feeling anxious on most days, due to worrying about lots of different things.
  • OA ( Osteoarthritis) of knee– it affects the bones, the cartilage, and the synovium in the knee joint, which causes pain and stiffness.
  • Lumbago– pain in the muscles and joints in the lower back.
  • Chronic Pain– caused by inflammation and dysfunctional nerves
  • Cervical Radiculitis– pain felt in the uppermost section of the spine column. It affects the neck and shoulders, and radiates and spreads to other parts of the body including the arms and hands.
  • Insomnia– having trouble sleeping and having trouble staying asleep
  • Chronic Neck Pain– constant pain in the neck due to stress, or other issues
  • Knee and Leg Pain–a painful condition in which connective tissues rub against the thighbone.
  • Fibromyalgia– Widespread muscle pain and tenderness. It can be accompained by fatigue and altered sleep, memory and mood. Medication might help, but this condition can never be cured.

Not everyone knows what I deal with daily, I don’t talk about it to anyone, as I am usually pinned as an attention seeker. My life has been turned upside down, due to everything that is wrong with me. I have already had one back surgery, and it just made it all worse. So when you see me, and I am smiling and happy, just know that I am dying on the inside, I am fighting a losing battle, I am just trying to make you happy.

I wish that others cared about me, as much as I care about them. Instead of me being judged on a daily bases. I am fighting a invisable illnesses, that most won’t begin to understand what my life is like. I wish I could work, I wish I could walk around a park, I wish I could do all the things that I used to be able to do. But, my life has been forever changed.

You don’t know how someone feels, unless your in their shoes, so don’t be so quick to judge a book by its cover. Be kind, try to understand what someone is going through. Thankfully I have a very supportive husband and children.

Also know, that we might have some of the same conditions, but we all feel or deal with them differently. I sit at home all the time, I have no friends, I don’t go outside to stores much, I rather be comfortable in my own home. I have been told I don’t have friends cause I don’t leave the house, well it isn’t always that easy for me. I have had friends, and once I became ill, they disappeared from my life. Well, they’re still there, but only if they want something from me, then they talk about me behind my back.

I am getting off subject here… I just wanted y’all to be aware of what I deal with daily. If you have read this all, I commend you. Thank you for listening to me..

Winter Street By Elin Hilderbrand

5/5 star rating!! This is a must read…

About the book :

As a family gathers on Nantucket for a holiday filled with surprises. Kelley Quinn is the owner of Nantuckets Winter Street Inn and the proud father of four, all of them grown and living in varying states of disarray. Patrick, the eldest, is a hedge fund manager with a guilty conscience. Kevin, a bartender, is secretly sleeping with a French housekeeper named Isabelle. Ava, a school teacher, is finally dating the perfect guy but can’t get him to commit. And Bart, the youngest and the only child of Kelley’s second marriage to Mitzi, has recently shocked everyone by joining the Marines.

As Christmas approaches, Kelley is looking forward to getting the family together for some quality time at the inn. But when he walks in on Mitzi kissing Santa Claus ( or the guy who’s playing Santa at the inn’s annual party), utter chaos descends. With the three older children each reeling in their own dramas adn Bart unreachable in Afghanistan, it might be up to Kelley’s ex-wife, nightly news anchor Margaret Quinn, to save Christmas at the Winter Street Inn. Before the mulled cider is gone, the delightfuly dysfunctional Quinn family will survive a love triangle, an unplanned pregnancy, a federal crime, a small house fire, many shots of whiskey, and endless rounds of Christmas caroling, in this heart- warming novel about coming home for the holidays.

My Review :

I loved this book, the plot, the setting in Nantucket, I fell in love with the characters, they all fit the story so well. My heart went out to Kelly, as he was trying to stay so strong for his family. He has been through so much. His wife Mitzi of twenty years of marriage has been cheating on Kelly for twelve years with George the guy who stayed at the inn every year to be the inn’s Santa Claus. Kelley walked in on them kissing, and it went down hill from there.

Margaret was on her way to Hawaii for the holidays after her last news anchor on Christmas Eve. Ava calls her and wants to go with her, she needs to get away from Nantucket. But. to Ava’s surprise her mother was taking Drake with her who she has seen off and on two years. At the last minute Margaret changes her mind and has decided to go to Nantucket to celebreate Christmas with her family. Her assitant Darcy has given her some information about Bart, who is Kelley and Mitzi’s son from their marriage, and the youngest of Kelley’s kids.

Patrick’s wife left him and took the boys to her parents house, she was mad and upset that Patrick has put them in this situation. Patrick might be heading to prison for a while, that will leave Jennifer alone with 3 boys, and become the talk of the town

Kevin has been through so much, he feels like the family failure. He works at a bar as a bar-tender, actually he is the bar manager. While everyone else is successful, he feels less important. He has had a divorce already from Norah, who was how do I say this nicely, she was a Bitch!! She did Kevin so wrong, she left him heart broken and broke. She left and took everything.. Kevin didn’t want to date anyone else, but than it all changed when he fell in love with Isabelle. He kept questioning himself, he loved her, but he didn’t want to be burned again.

I fell in love with Elin Hilderbrand’s writing style when I read the Summer of 69′, so I knew I had to check out all of her other books. I am so glad that I did, because I have fallen in love.

I also had no clue that this book was apart of a series, once I figured it out I had to get to the library and get all of the books in the series.

If you haven’t read this book, you need to add it to your tbr list.